Soul is a conglomerate and
not a unit as thought by many. It has four parts
namely Buddhi, Ahankar, Manas and Chit. They
need to be purified thoroughly so that link
with the Divine is established. God has willed
that all should be happy and contented, it is
only we with our attachments created problems
for ourselves.
Ecstasy of Soul
1. Regarding the nature of the Soul:
I am sure you have read Rev. Babuji's
clarifications on the Identity. There are three
concepts 1. Soul 2. Identity and 3 Individuality.
My experience is that the individuality is a
composite of Ego, Manas and Buddhi with all
their hues (Sattvic, Rajasic and Tamasic). You
will note that all our relationships, the concepts
of runa(debts) are included in this. And that
is what is reborn based on the choice of this
faculty to undergo certain portion of the karma's
during the immediate next life and this is what
transmigrates but as only part of the Karma's
are sought to be cleared in a particular life,
the result of quite a lot of karma remains to
be undergone normally during later lives. Due
to sadhana, first we stop forming further samskaras
by total dependency on the Master, and the Karma
that we have opted to undergo during this life
is gone through as also the balance of Karma
that we have proposed to undergo later in the
next lives also are undergone either during
meditations or during dreams. However it is
necessary that the bhog of all previous Karma's
should be gone through before we come up to
the stage of mere identity from the level of
individuality. You are aware that unless the
help of the Master is there through Pranahuti
and we attend to the cleaning methods and meditation
on points A and B as given by the Great Master
regularly the bhog cannot be completely gone
through and the consciousness becomes Nistrigunya.
The identity as different from individuality
has only consciousness as its body, while the
individuality is invariably a conglomerate of
sense organs, motor organs, Manas and ahankar.
However my experience is that while simple and
silent identity is felt it is also accompanied
by the feeling of devotion to Master, Perhaps
that is the nature of the Soul or identity,
namely to be devoted to Master with total simplicity.
No emotional overtones are there. No ecstasy
is there. No prayers are there. It is just an
awareness of being. Master perhaps refers to
this when he says neither the beggar, nor beggars
bowl is there but only begging. I do not know
how to express it better. The Soul or identity
is mere consciousness of nothingness. Neither
the idea of vacuum nor the idea of space is
there. There are no thoughts but simple awareness
of nothingness. It is neither a bubble nor water
but the memory of having been a bubble. I do
not know whether what I have written makes the
matter any clearer but that is what I know.
While the devotedness and dependency are felt
during the meditations, in actual day to day
life this consciousness can take only the form
of service to Master (kainkarya) and any other
form of expression of this is only a residual
effect of the individuality, These states are
the agony and ecstasy of the Soul.
God
As for God, I never sought nor am I
interested. Except the Kaushitiki Upanishad
no one has described God and His land, all others
talked of Brahman. Our Master leads us to Nothingness
through Brahmagati and nothing more. If we cling
to our pet notions of God and His manifestations
however great they may be I am of the opinion
they are sufficiently heavy and the heart feels
loaded with some stone.
1. I am always told
(and convinced) that God is the first priority,
Divine work including sadhana must always override
all other things. I am trying to give sadhana
high importance, I know I am not successful
all times.
I do not want to dwell about God as
a goal of life as no one for sure can explain
anything about it to others. I think you need
to read the book Ten Commandments of Sri Ramchandra.
2. Another shortcoming
on my part is that I am still not able to accept
the Master in toto. I still see difference between
God and Master
Neither you know the Master nor the
God then why do you bother about their difference
Atman and Brahman
Atman and Brahman first of all are
not entities but only conglomerates. Atman consists
of Buddhi, Manas, Chit and Ahankar. So long
as these faculties function moving in a limited
sphere it is called Atman. When the same conglomerate
grows by its functions (obviously thought) it
gets called by the name Brahman. Atman from
its initial state of thinking and moving in
its sphere grows first into the stages of Rishi,
Rajarshi and Brahmarshi. Paramatman is the word
that has been usually used in Religion to note
the first and foremost expression of the Divine
and is not a stage of the Atman. I do not know
whether you are clear about these concepts.
Ego
The Ego is not something that goes
before getting into the higher realms. But that
is what we were asked to learn. That Ego is
different from the development of Ego through
the rings of Egoism that Master talks about.
I am not able to understand the demand to know
everything. Certain things are better not known:
that is the system of Rev. Babuji. He in His
wisdom has saved us from knowing everything,
lest it develops EGO. Still you want to know
because it is said so in tradition or in scriptures.
If He spoke with authority He has the authority.
Is it not enough that we are humble servants
of the Master? Is it too small? Don't you think
your craving in this regard is a product of
ego? Please do not misunderstand. I am only
trying to tell you our limitations and the limitations
imposed by the Master on our work. What is the
value of knowledge if it is not for action.
When He says He uses us for His work without
our conscious knowledge and will do you still
feel that you are to get that awareness? Don't
you think that the so called dissatisfaction
arising out of this is only a fiction of the
Ego? Having reached high states of consciousness
and spiritual development it is only service
to the Master that counts.
1. Trying to feel lowliness
and develop humility under all circumstances,
but sometimes ego springs up and doesn't allow
it. Praying to the Master for nullifying the
ego.
What you mean by ego is not clear.
Ego has three types of expression- that it is
the doer, it is the enjoyer and it is the knower.
If all these three are converted to mean Masters'
ego gets molded. And at the perfect state it
becomes identity. Never is it annihilated. Annihilation
of ego is the talk of vedantins and pseudo yogis.
Please find time to learn the system well.
2. Feelings of Doership
Our ego has basically three components:
1. I am what I do 2. I am what I achieve 3.
I am what is my reputation. One has to come
out of these and that takes some time; assiduous
practice and dependency on Master are the means.
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