The other day when I was with one of the senior abhyasis, by whom I mean, one who has been practicing the system of Rajyoga for about two decades, he asked a question about his condition. He was also commenting on the type of experiences he had during the 'Basant Utsav' at Calcutta wherein on some days it was very good and on certain other occasions, it was as usual. The answer to this question is we expect something during the meditation and when we don't have it, we feel disappointed or when we have it, we feel elevated.

One has to clearly understand the relative positions of the Trainer and the Aspirant. An aspirant regards Trainer as someone who has a quantity of something and will give him a part of it. Or he may look upon him as someone who knows a method of achieving something. The Guide sees the student as someone who is eligible for gaining a portion of the substance. In another sense, he looks upon him as someone who can achieve something. The discerning person sees between these two attitudes a very fine relationship.

The problem of the Trainer is greater than the problem of the aspirant. One reason for this is that the aspirant is anxious to learn but very rarely understands that he can learn 'Only under the conditions which make learning possible'. He cannot make progress until he has undergone a preparation for learning. When this preparation is complete, the student progresses slowly, rapidly or instantly through a number of phases in which he understands, what he calls the meaning of life. Rev. Babuji used to say that in spirituality, the share goes to the really deserving and for that, Love and Obedience are required and that these two are totally independent. The most important thing is that the aspirant has to get into an alignment with the Trainer and the method in which his progress can be effective and continuous.

Because the aspirant is likely to be imprisoned by attitudes which have trained him, he will tend to approach the Trainer and the method in all kinds of ineffective ways. He is likely to seek peace of mind, progress in things worldly, like money, illumination, assurances, wisdom etc., In other words he demands to be taught or be given knowledge or other things, which he happens to be wanting for the only reason that he has decided that these are necessary or urgent. Obviously, such a demand is as ridiculous as a student in the class room learning Mathematics, demanding he should be first taught about Binomial Theorem because he thinks that to be the most important.

The real fact is, we can learn only what we can absorb. If we are to impose or interpose conditions gained from speculation, imagination, emotion or intellect, we are yet to learn, how to learn. This is made possible by being totally open to the Trainer, and being unprejudiced as to what one needs to learn.

The aspirant, not knowing what he really is, not knowing where he came from and where he can go, is hardly fit to say that he should get his instructions in a particular form or method. Rev Babuji often used to say that most of us love our experience and not Him and that we turn to Him to feel such emotion. In spirituality, we WAIT but do not AWAIT.